Well 2011 is here and I realize I have no business in it at all. I'm really hoping today is the day I can get out of here. Nothing worse than being around when you don't want to be. I just hope that I won't fight against myself this time. Like I said in the last post, I shouldn't have to hang myself or skitter my brains against the wall to achieve the result I want. Why can't I drift away peacefully and without pain? Why can't my body understand that. All this struggle for what? To live another day and go through the same pain over and over. I have been doing that the last 8 months. It's kind of old.
We'll see how today turns out. Also sorry again for not putting the story up. To be honest it's pretty lame anyways so I don't know if it would have made a difference if I posted it or not.
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